rp quick notes(shortlist of rps & solos that best reflect muri as a character / showcase his arcs)
sure to lure someone bad (reiki/muri, elsa, & soyala: in which reiki awakens as murikabushi & makes poor elsa Suffer from crushy emotions.) V is for Virtue, so i ainât gonna hurt you (muri & kerberos: believe it or not, this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.) the living but dead (muri & fang: weird s**t occurs, and muri accidentally finds out what his magic does to people, is unhappy.) raw deal (muri & anser: in which sailor untitled goose game is doing too much & thanks, muri hates it.) a locked tomb (muri, faustite & tama: magic management lessons with tama-sensei. faustite gets his feelings hurt.) january dry, hard, glittering, cold (muri & faustite: muri finds a certain tsundere half-dead on a motel roof.) i wouldnât like me if i met me (muri & arsenolite: trying to help someone he dislikes out of a sense of queer obligation.) always rooting for the anti-hero (reiki & levi: this conversation about their internal conflicts could have gone better.) when everythingâs made to be broken (reiki, kerberos, & ida: reiki wants to meet kerberos as himself, not as muri, before purifying.) more to do if i can only live (muri/mirror-clone: oh, so mirrorspace thinks she is the true miss diva, huh?) play me a song to set me free (muri, volterra, ida, kerberos, yuki & illyria: itâs purification time!) on the stage in my heels (solo: this is a lot of emotions for filming internet content set to chappell roan, kiyoshi.) the anchor in the storm (10-person ORP set in the calamitous hollowâs prison. muriâs posts: **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **.) grim tidings (muri, remarque, & hybris: muri comes to warn the dmc about the calamitous hollow.) STORMBREAKER: at worldâs end (big meta ORP about fighting a nightmarish world-eater. muriâs posts: **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **, **.) can you use it in a sentence? (elior & kiyoshi: relationship things are happening with a cute boy!) have you seen this dumpster fire? (albite & muri: albite is starting dumpster fires to search for his husbando; muri canât help, but CAN hug.) lookinâ for a star-sent sign (soyala & muri: in which soya-hime is having doubts and seeking insight.) some enchanted evening (soyala, muri & ida: in which soya-hime wants to purify, and becomes muriâs bonded mauvian.)
âAnd I heardâ that there's a special place Where boysâ and girls can all be queens every single day.⊠Iâm up and jaws are on the floor. Lovers in the bathroom and a line outside the door. Black lights, and a mirror disco ball. Every nightâs another reason why I left it all.⊠On the stage in my heels, itâs where I belong.â âChappell Roan, âPink Pony Club.â
âEating meatâŠis a communion, an inherently intimate act. Hunger and lust feel very similar. They come from the same primal areas of our psychology, and they both have the power to completely overwhelm us.â âAndrew Rakich (Atun-Shei Films), Overanalyzing Ravenous.
âWhat a thing, to be both starving and empty. To ache for loveâto take the scraps from its table, and yet, run sickly from the feast.⊠Some of us have gone so long hungry, the idea of being full feels worse than the affliction.â âAshe Vernon, âLove Disorders and Other Old Heartaches.â
è:kiyo, âholy, sacred.â ćż:shi, âpurpose, will, determination, aspiration, ambition.â æĄ:sakura, âcherry tree (esp. Prunus serrulata, Japanese cherry); cherry blossom.â æČą:zawa, âmarsh, wetland; blessed, highly favored; having in abundance; mountain stream.â
Nickname: Kiki. Magdalene Yotsuya Wilde on all the socials for his drag. ******** (but only Yuki is allowed to use that one). Call him âYoshiâ and you can meet the business end of his cute pumps.
Gender/Pronoun: Exhausted. Needs/Nap. (Cis man, any pronouns except âit.â Usually goes with he/him, but is comfortable with she/her or they/them. If using a personal pronoun in Japanese, prefers atashi ăăă.)
Age:27.28. 29.
Birthday:February 29th, 1996. October 31st, 1996.
Sign:Pisces. Scorpio. Fire Mouse/Rat.
Gemstone: As of his purification, opal and tourmaline (but he still remembers that the original answer was amethyst and doesnât plan to stop liking them).
Blood Type: B+
Height: 6â4â
Fav. Food: He really doesnât want to discuss this right now. (The answer hasnât changedâstrawberries, his godfatherâs mac and cheese, his grandfatherâs shiitake udon, and chicken nuggetsâhe just doesnât want to talk about it.)
Hated Food: Nor this, either. (This answer hasnât changed either: blueberries, limes, avocado, mayonnaise, and Taco Bell.)
School: None, at the moment. He may start back at DCU again eventually, but he needs some time to settle before he can handle that, emotionally. Also, he needs space to think about his goals and dreams and all of that.
Occupation: âŠâŠWhy canât âSailor Murikabushiâ be his occupation, exactly? That used to be a thing a thousand years ago, right? Frankly, given how complicated and exhausting the senshi life is, this sounds like the most sensible and reasonable idea. Honestly, asking Kiyoshi to pick another job is senshi-phobic against him personally. âŠâŠAlso, Blossom loves him very much and gave him a job at Puppy Paws doing pretty much anything BUT baking.
âI donât want a world without pain, or loss. / I just want them to mean something.â âEmily Horne & Joey Comeau, A Softer World.
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION
Eyes: Gray. Monolidded, and while not small, they arenât naturally very big, either. However, even out of his queen drag, Kiyoshi never leaves the house without applying some of the tricks he knows with eyeliner, shadow, foundation, and mascara to make them look bigger.
Hair: Black with cool undertones. Long, thick, straight, and a pain in the a** to fit under a wigâbut if the choice is âdo some extra work while getting readyâ or âcut off his waist-length ponytail,â then Kiyoshi will choose the extra work and you can pry his ponytail from his cold, dead hands. In drag, her hair can be literally any color, literally any style, though Kiyoshi does tend to prefer either black or blatantly unnatural colors (pink, purple, aquamarine, etc.).
Face: Heart-shaped overall, with a jawline and cheekbones that could cut diamonds. The thing Kiyoshi hates most about his face is his nose, which is longer and bigger than heâd like, and while heâs found ways of contouring it that he doesnât hate, he has yet to find a nose contour that he truly likes, or that makes him feel any better about his nose itself. (Has he considered rhinoplasty? Yes, but he refuses to go for a nose-job because giving up the pursuit of his perfect nose contour would mean admitting defeat, which would mean losing, and thatâs unacceptable to him, thank you very much.)
Skin Tone: Light-medium, mixed golden and peachy tones. He gains and loses color in his skin very easily, getting darker or lighter depending on how much time he spends outside. Leans more toward a more tawny color when heâs been getting a lot of sun, but ends up a lighter, more neutral tan when he hasnât (usually seen in winter).
Base â #D9B58C Shadows â #C79C76 Highlights â #EFDBBD More Sunkissed Base â #D7AA7C Winter Skin Base â #DDBC90
Foundation Colors: Buff Beige + Sand Beige (LâOreal True Match Super Blendable); Pro Filtâr #210 or #230 and Eaze Drop #7 or #8 (Fenty Beauty; âlight to medium skin with warm neutral undertonesâ + âmedium skin with warm undertonesâ); 23Y [âlight-medium skin with yellow undertonesâ] + 24N [âlight-medium skin with neutral undertonesâ] (Sephora Best Skin Ever Liquid Foundation)
Body Type: Tall (6â4â), broad-shouldered, muscular and fit with a narrow waist and long legs. In drag, the vibe he usually tries to go for is âstatuesqueâ and padding out a more hourglass figure.
Tattoos: 1. Left shoulder-blade, black script font with a quote of Cersei Lannisterâs from A Dance With Dragons: âI am a lioness. I will not cringe for them.â
Clothes: a smoothie blended out of several specific flavors of Lolita fashion, every gender-ambiguous goth-adjacent babe from your favorite shoujo or josei manga, and Kiyoshiâs lifelong dream of being a princess in the âfantasy novels and Disney moviesâ sense of the term. Owns a distressingly high number of shirts featuring fanart of Cersei Lannister, Sansa Stark, Elim Garak and Dr. Julian Bashir, Beckett Mariner, and various magical girls. Also owns a shirt where a cartoon fanart version of Captain James T. Kirk proclaims that he is âall about that space, âbout that space, NO TRIBBLES.â
âLet me give you some counsel, b*****d. Never forget what you are, for surely the world will not. Make it your strength. Then it can never be your weakness. Armor yourself in it, and it will never be used to hurt you.â âTyrion Lannister (George RR Martin), A Game of Thrones.
Posted: Sat Feb 19, 2022 6:35 pm
âI wanted to explain myself to myself in an understandable way. I gave shape to my fears and made excuses.⊠Somethingâs not right about what Iâm doing but Iâm still doing itâ living in the worst parts, ruining myself.⊠The enormity of my desire disgusts me.â âRichard Siken, âBirds Hover the Trampled Field.â
HOBBIES: Drag: A simple word for an artistic calling that combines, among other things, acting, dance, comedy and sass, makeup, wig-styling, costuming, and editing a performance mix (though Kiyoshi usually gets Yukiâs help with the last one). While Magdalen Yotsuya Wildeâs social media presence still exists, Kiyoshi has begun moving back into performances at bars, and heâs so. happy. He hasnât built up enough cred to produce shows yet, but heâs working to rebuild old friendships and working relationships from before he purified. Heâs also down to help mentor younger drag artists, and he takes commissions to design outfits for people.
Textile Arts: Even outside of his drag, Kiyoshi loves making things with fabric and yarn. Heâs most skilled at sewing as in garment construction or mending, having made most of his own clothes since he was fifteen (gothic lolita fits like he wants to wear arenât generally sized for someone so tall or with his proportions). However, heâs also familiar with knitting, crochet, and embroidery. He especially enjoys making things for other people, whether that means taking commissions to make someone a custom dress, knitting scarves for friends in winter, or making crochet-body plush creatures as gifts for people he loves.
Gossip: Kiyoshi likes to talk, which generally becomes obvious within twenty seconds of meeting him. While heâs perfectly content to talk about random thingsâespecially ones where he knows a lotâone of his favorite subjects is everybody elseâs business. Also, his own business. Petty interpersonal dramas, the latest tea on the romantic contretemps going on among any given group (usually the Destiny City magical community but not always), whose tragic backstory is making them set things on fire this weekâwhile Kiyoshi understands that some things arenât his to share, he considers few avenues of gossip off limits.
Space History: As he puts it, Kiyoshi was raised in the untamed wilds of an academic library by a pack of feral historians. Heâs not sure yet if he wants to start over on a PhD, but his love of studying history remains. Of late, his focus has been pretty much everywhere but Earth. Naturally, this entails rifling around his home-world, trying to learn as much as he can about its people, their lives and cultures, etc.âbut he wants to learn ALL the space history. Please take him to your world or Wonder? Yes, even if youâre a space senshi and havenât cleared the Chaos infection yet. Tell him about your people and their culture? There are so many stories out there to learn from! âŠâŠâŠPlease? đ„ș
âI can give you my loneliness, my darkness, the hunger of my heart, I am trying to bribe you with uncertainty, with danger, with defeat.â âJorge Luis Borges, âTwo English Poems.â
VIRTUES: Earnest: Kiyoshi always wants to live as his most authentic self. To that end, he lets people know upfront what theyâre in for with him and doesnât waste time trying to please people who arenât going to like him. He will exercise self-censorship (e.g., immediate bitchy responses donât always reflect his true feelings) and he can tone things down (he wants to be in community with others, which is easier if he respects that people have limits). He takes extra steps like that not to hide, but because he knows who he is and who he wants to be. Yes, he is a loud, dramatic, stubborn diva, and he absolutely does too much. He gave you his content warnings; you can take him or leave him.
Determined: When Kiyoshi cares about what heâs doing, he goes in full-throttle and wonât stop until heâs either accomplished what he set out to do or been forced to stop. While he expects a lot from himself, heâs trying to get better at forgiving himself for not hitting every high bar that he sets for himself. But even so, Kiyoshi always needs to know that he tried. If he doesnât give a task or project the best efforts that he can under the circumstances, he simply will not be satisfied.
Compassionate: At his core, Kiyoshi wants to be the sort of person who wouldâve helped his younger self. He cares very deeply about other people, their pain, and their problems. Too many problems in this universe, he thinks, come from people hardening their hearts to each other instead of trying to help. Whether they need a shoulder to cry on, leeway and patience while theyâre struggling, or someone to break things down for them while coming from a place of love, Kiyoshi wants to do whatever he can to make the bad times more bearable, or to understand someone on their own terms as much as possible.
Idealistic: Kiyoshi sees hope as a central part of being a magical girl and refuses to let go of it. Things can always get better if people are willing to check their egos and put in the work. If things are unfair and shitty right now, they donât need to stay that way. People might have a lot of work to do, but they can always make better choices and choose to be their best selves. Somebody may make themself so dangerous that killing them is better for the collective good, but you will never convince Kiyoshi that there wasnât some way to help them. Nothing in this life is hopeless, and ******** you if you want Kiyoshi to stop believing that.
âWhy does the mind do such things? Turn on us, rend us, dig the claws in. If you get hungry enough, they say, you start eating your own heart. Maybe itâs much the same.â âMargaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin.
FLAWS: Dramatic: Unfortunately, Kiyoshiâs most authentic self is an emotional maximalist: he has a surplus of Big Feelings and very little chill. Despite trying to restrain this so he doesnât overwhelm people, he still Does The Most, expressing himself hyperbolically, his emotional volume turned up to 11, sometimes without knowing how serious he is. His reactions to stress and perceived slights quickly become disproportionate and spiral into tangled, messy consequences. Unpacking his Big Feelings is A Whole Production, so he puts it off, which in turn makes both his snap reactions and the eventual unpacking worse.
Basically, heâs A Lot To Deal With, and his self-awareness about it only helps so much.
Stubborn: Kiyoshi tries very hard to consider multiple different perspectives and weigh potential outcomes before making most decisionsâŠâŠbut once heâs decided something, good luck getting him to stop. Heâs sticking to what he decided until he cannot justify keeping it up anymore, and it usually takes a long time and a lot of consequences for him to reach that point. He can admit to being wrong, but it often takes his bullshit hurting other people for him to do so. If the negative effects only hit him, heâll carry on, undaunted.
Martyr Complex: Heâd call it âoldest child syndrome,â but the semantics donât change how Kiyoshi chronically deprioritizes his own needs. Yes, he cares about others and empathizes with themâbut he does so with very few boundaries, allowing their troubles to overwhelm him. He treats other peopleâs problems as bigger and more important than his own because heâs pretty sure thatâs just true [citation needed]? Specific self-deprecating justifications vary, but all dance around the fact that Kiyoshi doesnât value himself very much as a person. What he can doâwhat he can sacrificeâfor others is more important because of reasons.
Willfully Self-Deluded: Although Kiyoshi likes to project an image of being a reasonable adult person, he regularly undermines that by revealing beliefs and basic assumptions that simply are not how anything works. On stage at a drag show, Kiyoshi living in his little french vanilla fantasy is fineâthe fantasy feeds the spectacleâbut out in reality, he gets in trouble by refusing to meet reality halfway. People will hand him evidence that they wonât stop doing harmful things, and heâll tell himself he needs to overlook that because they havenât had enough kindness in their lives. Okay, yes, this situation looks bad, but like, what if it wasnât?
âWe have not touched the stars, nor are we forgiven, which brings us back to the heroâs shoulders and a gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.⊠Iâll give you my heart to make a place for it to happen, evidence of a love that transcends hunger.â âRichard Siken, âSnow and Dirty Rain.â
âWhen I went about dreaming of satisfying peopleâs dreams, satisfying their hunger for illusion, didnât I know that this was the most painful and the most insatiable hunger? What impels me to offer now, truth in place of illusion?â âAnaĂŻs Nin, The Diary of AnaĂŻs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934.
Senshi:Dark Mirror Eternal Sailor Murikabushi, Senshi of Hunger
Basic Challenge: âDonât you wanna eat this cake?â Super Challenge: âWhat are you hungry for?â // âWhat hungers lurk within your soul?â Eternal Challenge: âHunger also comes from the soul.â // âThe cake is a lie.â
Uniform Colors:
Main Color:Regal Violet â #5F4D78 ââââââââ
Secondary Color:Bloody, Visceral Red â #A01432 ââââââââ
âSometimes Iâm terrified of my heart; of its constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. The way it stops & starts.â âPoe, âTerrified Heart.â
Attacks: Sailor Scout Attack: Gnawing Hunger.
Extending an arm, Murikabushi bends his wrist back; as he calls the name of his attack, he curls his fingers into a fist, then jerks his hand down as if tugging a cord. Enemies within 10 feet of him begin to feel a powerful hunger or sense of craving, one they feel cannot be sated, and yet, they are compelled to try. This craving can be for anythingâfood, drink, affection/intimacy, alcohol or narcotics, the answers to the math homework, etc.âbut it is quite distracting. This spell lasts for 25 seconds, and Murikabushi can use it three times per battle.
Super Sailor Scout Attack: Ravenous Hunger.
Extending an arm, Murikabushi bends his wrist back; as he calls the name of his attack, he curls his fingers into a fist, then jerks his hand down as if tugging a cord. Enemies within 15 feet of him are wracked with an intense hungerâthe sort of hunger that gnaws at your insides, like you havenât eaten all day. The craving can be for anythingâfood, drink, affection/intimacy, alcohol or narcotics, the answers to the math homework, etc.âand enemies are compelled to satiate it, but find it even more difficult to do so than they would expect. In addition to the intensity, this hunger makes them feel somewhat sluggish, making it harder for them to think, decide what to do, and see any actions through to completion, even those that they believe will satiate their hunger. Affected targets are still capable of acting and fighting backâthough people may react to hungers roused by Murikabushiâs magic differentlyâbut until the hunger abates, they will struggle.
This spell lasts for 35 seconds, and Murikabushi can use it twice per battle. Additionally, this magic can be varying degrees of thrown off or ignored with focus, determination, practiced self-neglect that makes one feel like this hunger isnât so bad, being accustomed to deprivation and therefore more capable of powering through the effects, magical protection, or some other, similar means of resistance.
âThatâs what comes of hungering for something; you forget to check if itâs rotten before you gobble it down.â âHolly Black, The Cruel Prince.
BONUS SENSHI MAGIC: Enormity of Hunger.
Murikabushi extends a hand and snaps a finger to summon this magic. Up to three targets within 15 feet of him experience hunger pangs and body aches similar to going hungry for a day or two. Accompanying the pain, any hunger they might conceivably have at the moment demands their attention all at once. These hungers may be for anything: food, drink, affection/intimacy, alcohol or narcotics, the answers to the math homework, etc. While targetsâ hungers do not feel insatiable, they are very powerful and the multiple concurrent desires may overwhelm affected targets. This magic lasts for 35 seconds. Murikabushi may use it twice per battle.
Eternal Sailor Attack: Hungerâs Hollow.
Murikabushi extends an arm and snaps a finger to call up this magic. Enemies within 20 feet become wracked by the feeling of extreme hunger and deprivation, the sort where you feel drained and empty, like simply existing is too much effort. Physically, they will feel an empty stomach, body aches, and hunger pangs (however those feel for them) that refuse to be tuned out. These pains are accompanied by desperation to satiate a hunger within them (which can be for anything: food, drink, affection/intimacy, alcohol or narcotics, the answers to the math homework, etc.), but a sense that they will never be satisfied. Targets may also experience any combination of: dizziness, disorientation, emotional hypersensitivity, inability to focus, increased anger, decreased impulse control, decreased emotional control/regulation, and/or feelings similar to depression.
The magic ends after 45 seconds, but characters may experience lingering side-effects at player discretion. Murikabushi may use this attack once per battle.
PASSIVE POWERED ENHANCEMENT: Where the Wild Roses Grow.
During the Silver Millennium, Murikabushian true-black roses were a sacred symbol associated with the senshi, and now, they bloom around the Murikabushi of the 21st century. Rose blossoms spring up as he walks, following his footsteps; unlike the very dark reds or purples of most âblackâ flowers, these are pure black. If Murikabushi remains in one place, they can bloom around him for up to a ten-foot radius. Their stems have no thorns and nothing about them can harm or damage anyone. On Earth, these blossoms only linger for ten minutes after Murikabushi leaves a location. On his homeworld, the flowers are permanent.
DEAN: âSo this is your big trick? Huh? Making people cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs?â
FAMINE: âDoesn't take muchâhardly a push. Oh, America: all-you-can-eat, all the time. Consume, consume. A swarm of locusts in stretch pants. And yet, youâre all still starving because hunger doesn't just come from the body, it also comes from the SOUL.â âSupernatural, âMy Bloody Valentineâ (5.14).
âI swear, I end up feeling empty, like youâve taken something out of me and I have to search my body for the scars, thinking Did he find that one last tender place to sink his teeth in?âŠbut I think Iâd rather keep the bullet.âŠand with this bullet lodged in my chest, covered with your name, I will turn myself into a gun, because itâs all I have, because Iâm hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own.â âRichard Siken, âWishbone.â
HOUSEMATES: (non-dogs listed in order of joining the house.)
Yuki Tsukiyama: Technically, the house is in his name, but Muriâs queerplatonic partner doesnât mind seeing it as a communal space. He isnât magical, as far as anybody knows, but thatâs okay because he can make Doom run on pretty much everything remotely tech-adjacent in the house (except Mauvian tech, he hasnât been allowed to try on that yet).
Kuroi Sakurazawa / Super Grieve, DSS of the Collapse: Mostly addressed as âGrieve,â even when she isnât powered up (unless people are around who arenât known to be with Order, whether literally or in spirit/as support team members like Yuki).
Soyala: The Mauvian who first clocked that Reiki was a senshi, thus enabling Elsa to take him to the Black Mirror and get Awakened as Murikabushi. Thanks to Princess Ida, she purified in July 2025, and now has Muriâs perpetually unsatisfied ouroboros symbol on her forehead instead of a star. She is his little hime-sama and a quite proficient maker of nests (most often in Kiyoshiâs clothes).
Cersei Sakurazawa: Shelter rescue pit bull-terrier mix, whom Reiki impulsively adopted back in undergrad, about six weeks after he and his brother got their first off-campus place. Reiki only intended to window-shop, when he went to the local ASPCA shelter, but then he saw this little baby, with her big eyes and her floppy ears, and he fell in love. Despite being named for the grand high b***h of Westeros herself, Cersei is one of the sweetest dogs you will ever meet in your life. She can be shy when someone puts her on edge, but with most people, she has just met you and she loves you. All she wants in life is long walks, copious snuggles, food and water, and a couch by a window, where she can climb up on the back and sun herself.
Oh, and your food. Your food looks like it is very much For Dogs, and she wants some, please.
Dr. Hikaru Rokugin (ć éčżé): Dad. Professor in DCUâs mechanical engineering department.
Junsei Rokugin (çŽæŁ éčżé): Twin brother, younger than Reiki by eight minutes. Working on a PhD in robotics engineering at DCU.
Hinami Rokugin (æ„çŸ éčżé): Younger sister (23) and friendly neighborhood disaster lesbian. Sheâd be on her way to steal your girl if she could get there without tripping over her own feet because your girl dazzled her so much that she forgot how to be a person.
Nariko Rokugin (é·ć éčżé): Younger sister (17). Wishes that it were socially acceptable to cosplay Daenerys Targaryen pretty much every day, and in lieu of that, just tries to live her life like sheâs a Khaleesi, Mother of Dragons, Breaker of Chains, Slayer of Lies, Bride of Fire, Daughter of Death, Rightful Queen of Westeros, Prince That Was Promised, etc. etc. Has emotionally manipulated both of her brothers into being her Jon Snow for Halloween (though she admittedly has more success with Junsei because he never has the convenient excuse of âCanât do it, I have a show that nightâ).
Dr. Kiyoshi Rokugin (èćż éčżé): Grandfather. Professor in DCUâs history department.
Dr. Mitchell Isaac Jameson: Godfather. Professor of physics at Destiny City University.
Sidney Phillips: Uncle Mitchâs husband. Journalist known for asking the exact right questions to make any given political figure squirm and refusing to give up on a story until he gets the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth of it.
Dr. Satomi Rokugin (æ §æ·± éčżé): Aunt.
Hanako Ayanami (è±ć æćșèș«): Aunt, by virtue of being Satomiâs wife.
Tatsuya Rokugin (ç«äč éčżé): Cousin, Satomi and Hanakoâs son, around the same age as Nariko. Trans guy, pansexual, he/him. A little dotty and off on his own cloud, most of the time. Heâs never been officially diagnosed with anything, but thinks that he might be on the spectrum, but also doesnât know if he really needs/wants to get a diagnosis because he, personally, doesnât feel particularly distressed or impeded by his style of engaging with the world, nor by the fact that a lot of people donât get him. He doesnât need to be your cup of tea; he might be someone elseâs chocolate milkshake or cup of coffee, so itâs fine if heâs not for everyone.
Haruhi Tatsuhana (æ„æ„ éŸè±): Cousin and, since Reiki broke up with/walked out on Greg, his roommate. Technically, theyâre somewhat more distant than first-cousins, but that doesnât matter, with this family. Haruhi has âcousinâ in nis âofficialâ family designation, therefore ne is Reiki, Junsei, Hinami, Nariko, Erika, and Tatsuyaâs cousin.
If all Greg had only asked for Reiki to come to some parties, or give him some extra help studying for the bar, or other fairly reasonable things, they might not have broken up. Unfortunately, the past eighteen months (give or take) made some inconvenient truths about their relationship increasingly difficult to deny. The biggest one at the heart of everything was that, once upon a time, Greg was drawn in and enraptured by all the things about Reiki and his way of being that were like nothing else heâd ever dealt with: Reikiâs gender nonconformity and drag artistry, his willingness to argue with people whether you want him to or not, his commitment to causes that Greg doesnât think appeal to the white liberal-moderate donors, his constant search for something that his life is lacking that prevents him from feeling fulfilled, etc.
On some level, though, Greg had sort of hoped that, someday, he would be the certain, missing Something in Reikiâs life, that being with him would give Reiki everything he needed so he wouldnât need to keep searching, and then he would calm down and be a perfectly respectable political spouse, not an argumentative, loudmouth, doggedly stubborn drag queen whose grasp of impulse control is often tenuous at best.
âI waited, and so can he. I waited half my life. She had played the dutiful daughter, the blushing bride, the pliant wife. She had suffered Robertâs drunken groping, Jaimeâs jealousy, Renlyâs mockery, Varys with his titters, Stannis endlessly grinding his teeth. She had contended with Jon Arryn, Ned Stark, and her vile, treacherous, murderous dwarf brother, all the while promising herself that one day it would be her turn. If Margaery Tyrell thinks to cheat me of my hour in the sun, she had bloody well think again.â âCersei Lannister (George RR Martin), A Feast For Crows.
Posted: Sat Feb 19, 2022 6:39 pm
âThatâs the difference between love and hunger.⊠Hunger is a story you get stuck in. Loveâs the story that takes you somewhere new.â â Kai Cheng Thom, Fierce Femmes and Notorious Liars.
Cats hate Reiki, or at least all the cats heâs ever met hate him. He has no idea what heâs doing wrong, or what it is about him that fills cats with the impulse to attack him on-sight, but until he met Soyala and she liked him immediately, he had never in his life met a cat who didnât regard him with at best wariness and mistrust, at worst outright hostility. (Up to any other players whether this applies to IC Mauvians or not!)
Has known that heâs gay since he was five years old, and probably couldâve figured it out sooner? Itâs just that he, twin brother Junsei, and their cousin Erika all happened to be five when they learned the word âgayâ from their Obaasan.
They learned the word âgayâ because Reiki and Junsei got into a rather spirited debate about whether or not boys could be princesses. Junseiâs argument, like most peopleâs, was that âprinceâ and âprincessâ were obviously gendered titles, because in all the Disney movies, the princes were boys and the princesses were girls. Reiki, on the other hand, held that the titles âprinceâ and âprincessâ were obviously based on whom you wanted to kiss because princes always kissed princesses and vice versa; therefore, a boy who wanted to kiss princes would be a princess.
As soon as they got Obaasan involved, this turned into a whole discussion about whether Reiki felt like he was a girl like Erika, or did he just want to kiss boys, hence her ensuing explanation of what âgayâ meant. She did, however, agree that Reiki could be a boy princess if he wanted, just like she has since held that middle sister Hinami can be a girl prince if she feels like it (which she does; Tenjou Utena is, for Hinami, some absolute Life Goals)âand, well, Obaasan says that Reiki can be a boy princess, so everyone else needs to just get on her level and stop assuming that being a guy means he is a prince.
Mamaâs boy? Obaasanâs boy? Yes, Reiki is absolutely both of these things and he doesnât understand why you expect him to take them as insults. Do you think itâs demeaning for him to love, respect, and admire his mother and grandmother? That sounds like a horrible way for you to live. Sad.
Likewise, he refuses to understand the use of âpretty boyâ as a derogatory term. Like, yes, please, call him âpretty.â Tell him heâs the prettiest boy youâve ever seen.
He has mixed feelings about his maternal grandmotherâi.e., mostly negative ones, largely due to Sakurazawa Hotaru being an emotionally abusive, manipulative, two-faced, passive-aggressive, ethnosupremacist control freak whoâs super into fascism and acts like advocating for Mishima Yukioâs Confessions Of A Mask to be added to Japanâs national high school literature curriculum makes her a champion for gay rights (when actually, she only approves of Mishima-san because she is, as mentioned, super into fascism and thinks he had the right idea about that whole âoverthrow the democratically elected civilian government and transfer supreme power back to the Imperial familyâ thing).
None of this is at all helped by the fact that, as long as people outside the family arenât around, she has spent Reikiâs entire life openly hating him and making it abundantly clear to him that, of all her grandchildren, he is her single Number One Least Favorite. But because itâs not proper for him to just outright say how he feels about Hotaruânot least because it violates several taboos about filial pietyâReiki has resigned himself to describing his feelings about her as âmixed.â
He does, however, also refer to her as âOnibaba-samaâ behind her back, and if pressed, would only agree that this nickname is insulting to the oni. As far as heâs concerned, sheâs been derogatorily misgendering him for his entire life (and encouraging his momâs eldest two brothers in doing the same, though Uncle Mako at least seems to think itâs an affectionate joke, rather than a deliberate, demeaning insult), calling him âRokugin-kunâ and âmy daughterâs sonâ (but not âmy grandsonâ) in public as often as she can get away with, and referring to him as both âokamaâ (in a tone that makes it clear: she means it as a homophobic slur) and âthat one (derogatory)â more often than his name behind closed doors. So, honestly, he thinks she can deal with the fact that her least favorite grandchild calls her âOnibaba-samaâ behind her back.
Reikiâs not a fan of her husband either, and regularly refers to Sakurazawa Ryou as âOnibaba-samaâs vibrator with the missing batteriesâ (or some variation thereof). Ryou-ojiisama is a career civil servant from a very old, very wealthy family, who honestly wishes he could get away with letting his wife do his job for him, since she actually cares about governmental administration and heâd rather sit in his home-office and build scale models of famous battles from Japanese history. Like his wife, tends to refer to Reiki as âRokugin-kunâ and âmy daughterâs sonâ or âmy daughterâs childâ rather than âmy grandson,â but also goes one step further and generally refers to Hikaru-papa as âmy daughterâs idiot.â
His response to Reiki, aged five, teaching one of his Sakurazawa cousins (Kasumi, about the same age as Reiki and Junsei) the interesting new word that âthe mother of Ryouâs daughterâs idiotâ had taught himââgayââwas getting himself in a bit of a PR snafu on purposeâŠâŠby taking Reiki, who still desperately wanted his maternal grandparents to love him and approve of him, to Yasukuni Jinja, a perfectly normal Shinto shrine with an attached history museum, which just so happens to semi-deify and house the remains of multiple Class-A war criminals, and teach a version of Japanâs involvement in World War II that acts like the Nanjing Massacre/Rape of Nanjing and Dr. Ishii ShirĆâsexperimentation on and medical torture of innocent people never happened, that Japan only invaded China, Korea, and the Philippines to âliberate them from Western tyranny,â and that any claims about Japanese atrocities are stories made up by American propagandists and Chinese Communist brainwashing.
So, yeah.âŠâŠ If it ever seems like Reiki doesnât talk about his momâs family very much for someone who loves family, thatâs because he doesnât. He prefers to avoid talking about them as much as possible because several of his maternal family members are horrible people and they make him ******** miserable.
Despite getting treatment for his ED since he was ~16 and more actively cooperating with it since he was ~19/20, one of the hardest things he has to do every week is actually make a concentrated effort to just let himself eat one of his âbad, unsafe foodsâ that he likes just because he likes it and wants the thing, rather than making himself jump through all kinds of arbitrary hoops to âearnâ it (not least since he is very good at moving goalposts for himself in this way).
His favorite kinds of treats are good dark chocolate, or anything with âcookies and creamâ somewhere in the flavor. One of the easiest treats to let himself have is cookies and cream Pejoy sticksâbut this can sometimes be a double-edged sword, such as when he lets himself think âOh, I had some of my Pejoy sticks, therefore I donât need to be as vigilant about these feelings Iâm having like things are about to start getting bad again.â He tries to watch out for that, having made that mistake A LOT before, butâŠâŠitâs hard, sometimes.
On one hand, heâs smart enough to require a face recognition or a passcode to actually get into his phone. On the other hand, most of the people who love him know his passcodeâ042338 (itâs his beloved grandmotherâs birthday; heâs not that smart at passwords)âand they can swipe down to pull his âmost recently playedâ for Spotify into view without the passcode.
A running tally of youma and assorted monsters Reiki has nicknamed:
Centi-Tina (because Miss Thing was perfect, and beautiful, she looked like Linda Evangelista, she was a model, and her bottom half was a massive centipede).
Niji Kidna (ânijiâ from the Japanese for ârainbowâ and âKidnaâ from âEchidnaâ as in the Greek mythological mother of monsters, because Miss Diva was a snake-woman with rainbow butterfly wings).
Vanessa (because Miss Girl was a reverse cecaeliaâsame concept as a reverse mermaid [lady legs, fish head], but with tentacles and an octopus headâand âVanessaâ is the official Disney canon name of the alias Ursula uses in The Little Mermaid, when she poses as a human girl to try and keep Eric and Ariel from kissing before sunset).
Effie (because Miss Lady had a very decked out humanoid torso on top of her extravagantly flashy firefly butt, and Reiki thought Effie Trinket out of The Hunger Games was appropriate. May the odds be ever in your favor, b***hâoh wait, they werenât).
âSometimes, I feel like everybody is a sexy baby And Iâm a monster on the hill Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city Pierced through the heart, but never killed.⊠Itâs me, hi, Iâm the problem, itâs me. At tea time, everybody agrees. Iâll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror It must be exhausting, always rooting for the anti-hero.âŠâ âTaylor Swift, âAnti-Heroâ
And a running tally of humans, humanoid extraterrestrials, and half-youma who Reiki has nicknamed:
Acubens: Sailor Onee-san.
Albite: Hot Lips, Wagahai, Eien no Suji-kin Arubaito-sama.
Amsvartnir: Mr. Cosmos Centerfold Boy, Mr. Pastel Rainbow Centerfold, Space Dandy, Duckling.
Angelica: Bisexual Christmas Elf, Exchange Student From the North Pole, Sailor You sit on a throne of lies.
Anser: Sailor Gosling, Sailor Untitled Goose Game, Little Miss Sunshine.
Arsenolite: ******** Hawkeye, Dollar Store Hawkeye, Wannabe Robin Hood, This ******** Guy.
Daphne: Sailor Catgirl.
Encke: Sailor Golden Corral (Senshi of Centerfold Models).
Fang: Sailor Bargain Bin Derek Hale, Sailor Alexa, Play âHowlâ By Florence And The Machine.
Fafnir: Fire and Blueâd.
Faustite:CaptainGeneralGeneral-King Phoenix Force (but by this point [June 30th, 2023], Muri mostly just calls him by his actual name).
Heliodor: Sailor Outer Space Slut-Ninja.
Ida: The Sweetheart With The Orchids, Hime-sama.
Jadarite: Sharp-Dressed Maâam, Miss Jada.
Kerberos: Interloper, Blue Steel, The Goddamn Harem Girl Batman, Eternal Sparkly Kerberos-chan (Kono, Eien no Bishounen Kerberos-chan), Blossom, Pocket-Sized Thot, The Patron Saint Of Cute Sluts, Senpai.
Kom El Shoqafa: Ser Purple Rain.
Logos: Little Miss Canât-Be-Wrong.
Lysithea: Sailor Twilight Sparkle, My Little Lysithea, Destiny Cityâs Resident Cutie Mark Crusader.
Mirzam: Sailor Whatsit of Who-Cares, Sailor Hugetits of Who-Cares, Sailor Breasts Boobily, The One In The Boobs.
Morpheus: Sailor Poutyface.
Pax: Abbey Roadkill.
Pendour: The Transcendent Mermaid Knight of Chill Vibes.
Polyhymnia: Feisty Redhead.
Remarque: Prince Discount David Bowie, Prince âYou Forgot To Dry-Clean Jareth,â Sailor British Romantics Twink.
Sappho: The Eleventh Muse (because, you see, Plato hailed the original Sappho as âthe Tenth Muse,â and Blair isnât that Sappho, but she is A Sappho, and listen, it makes sense in Reikiâs gay little head, okay, leave him alone).
Valjean: Blondie, several variations on âthe off-putting, ill-tempered, tragically attractive blond in the very tiny shorts.â
And a running tally of Mauvians heâs nicknamed because it might as well happen:
Soyala: (Miss) Neko-hime, Soya-hime.
Tama no Hoshi: Neko-sama, Tama-sensei.
âThat night, I slept over at his house, holding him, showing him that it didnât matter to me. I wanted him to know that even if there was no cure, there was hope. The kind of hope that is powerful, because it comes from such need. That was the night he told me loved me. That he was in love with me.
âBut hearing him say it made me feel like he was saying it only because he was afraid. Afraid heâd never get anything better.⊠And I was angry with him. Furious that I had spent so much energy falling out of love with him, only to have him fall in love with me after he became diagnosed with a fatal disease. Part of me felt deep compassion. And another part felt like, You ******** Burroughs, Dry.
SPACE LITERACY TRACKER. Aylmarais (âMurikabushian Basicâ): Space French, the dominant language spoken and written in the Murikabushian capital. The world-building parallel here is specifically Modern French,
Common Ariake-zuki: Also called âVulgar Ariake-zuki.â Basically, itâs Space Katakana. Often found in books that people wanted to be more widely read, like popular novels or political pamphlets with insulting caricatures of the senshi in them.
GwĂŠloch: Derived from aforementioned ancient precursor to Aylmarais, kept alive by the GwĂŠloch people of northwestern Aylmarais despite attempts by the dominant social group at forcing them to linguistically assimilate.
High GwĂŠloch: An ancient precursor to both Aylmarais and MoravĂŠlishk, found primarily in ruins, old texts, and, to a lesser extent, surviving in narrative poetry that really wants you to know how deep and highbrow intellectual it is.
MoravĂŠlishk: The language of an ethnic minority who primarily lived in a piece of hinterland that regularly changed hands between the Northern Aylmarais and Sylvani Kebutovans.
Nakakuni: An ancient precursor of the Ariake-zuki language, which shares many of the same characters but has different grammar and syntax rules, and often uses the characters in different ways, to refer to different things.
Shoukyuan: Arguably a dialect of High Ariake-zuki, but there are enough unique charactersâand enough shared characters that have evolved significantly different meaningsâthat it is also arguably its own language. Spoken and written by the Shoukyu people of northeastern Murikabushi, a strongly matriarchal culture colonized by the Ariake-zuki people. Despite the concentrated efforts of both the Aylmarais and Ariake-zuki to force them to assimilate, the Shoukyuan people did their best to resist and to maintain their own language and culture.
âThis poverty was not just hunger in the stomach. It was hunger as attitude to life. Hunger for sentences and gestures, for speaking. Hunger for laughter. Hunger for noise that life makes.â âHerta MĂŒller, âHunger and Silkâ
Posted: Sun Feb 20, 2022 11:27 am
NON-COUNTING CIVILIAN RPs
greg is honestly the worst (solo feat. NPC Greg): âŠâŠwhat it says on the tin, tbh. Reikiâs ex is honestly the worst.
caffeinated academia (Asher & Reiki): hot, brewed beverages and feelings about their respective romantic contretemps. (1,432 words.)
murderâs (sadly) not an option (Haruhi & Reiki): cousins actually behaving like cousins rather than girlfriends. Also, Haruhi wants to kill Reikiâs ex and Cersei Rokugin would like all of the skritches and love, please. (1,971 words.)
greg is honestly the worst, pt. ii (solo feat. NPCs Armand/Brandy, Jude/Sybil, & Greg): in which Reiki debates some things about his (lack of) self-care with one of his drag sisters and one of his drag moms. Also, his ex continues to be the wooooorst.
go back to party city! (Reiki & Monoceros-TorĂĄin): TorĂĄin had a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day and takes it out on some trash cans. Reiki mistakes the noise for something that could be a queer-bashing and stomps in to interrupt. Somehow, this leads to chicken fingers. (3,735 words.)
protest song (Polyhymnia, Valjean, & Reiki): Valjean intends to do his Negaverse patrols, as one does. Polyhymnia intends to stop him, as one does. And Reiki intends to stick his nose into this nonsense like he thinks his cute homemade dupe of the St. Magdalenaâs uniform makes him Nancy Drew or Captain America or something. (1,137 words.)
donât start caring about me now (Levi & Reiki): Reikiâs drag moms are making him take a night off under threat of getting his mom mom and possibly his grandmother involved in making him take actual care of himself. So, since he canât be in the drag show tonight, he invites Levi to Piano Bar Wednesdays at Scandals. Then, Reikiâs ex shows upâŠâŠ (2,172 words.)(IN PROGRESS.)
jeepers & jinkies! (Reiki & Shoqafa): Strictly speaking if one runs into a giant centipede-woman youma on a walk home from campus, it would behoove one NOT to nickname her âCenti-Tinaâ and sarcastically tell her that sheâs perfect, sheâs beautiful, she looks like a model, etc.⊠Whoops. (1,802 words.)
itâs the music, not the story (solo): the drag performance that ends with Reiki leaving Scandals Bar, having a meltdown in the alley, and getting it crashed in on by his awakening as DMS Murikabushi.
~: ORP participation. ^: +500 words, for solos (beyond the base 500).
âStart by pulling him out of the fire and hoping that he will forget the smell. He was supposed to be an angel but they took him from that light and turned him into something hungry, something that forgets what his hands are for when they arenât shaking. He will lose so much, and you will watch it all happen because you had him first, and you would let the world break its own neck if it means keeping him. Start by wiping the blood off of his chin and pretending to understand.⊠When is a monster not a monster? Oh, when you love it.â âCaitlyn Siehl, âStart Here.â
greg is honestly the worst (reiki solo): âŠâŠwhat it says on the tin, tbh. Reikiâs ex is honestly the worst. caffeinated academia (asher v. & reiki): hot, brewed beverages and feelings about their respective romantic contretemps. murderâs (sadly) not an option (haruhi & reiki): cousins behaving like cousins, not girlfriends. Cersei Rokugin would like all the skritches, please. greg is honestly the worst, pt. ii (reiki solo): in which Reiki debates his (lack of) self-care with one of his drag sisters and one of his drag moms. go back to party city! (reiki & monoceros-torĂĄin): TorĂĄin had a bad day and beats up some trash cans. Reiki interrupts. Somehow, this leads to chicken fingers. protest song (polyhymnia, valjean, & reiki): Polyhymnia tries to interrupt Valjeanâs patrol, and Reiki wants to save the guy Valjean drained. donât start caring about me now (levi & reiki): Reiki invites Levi to Piano Bar Wednesdays at Scandals. Then, Reikiâs ex shows upâŠâŠ jeepers & jinkies! (reiki & shoqafa): Reiki runs into a centipede-woman youma on his way home; Shoqafa jumps in with the save.
âSIS PUELLA MAGICAâ: EARLY MAGICAL GIRL ADVENTURES
âMy love, we have found each other thirsty and we have drunk up all the water and the blood, we found each other hungry and we bit each other as fire bites, leaving wounds in us.â âPablo Neruda, âAbsence.â
updated: June 20th, 2023.
đđđđđŠ: the most favorite and beloved people, would die for you. đđđđâ«ïž: âBesties. If you call me at four AM and give me the names of everyone whoâs gotten in your way this week, Iâll wake up just to tell you all the ways youâre better than they are.â đđđâ«ïžâ«ïž: âGood friends. Will gladly come over with comfort food, movies, and a soft dog when youâre sad.â đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž: âWhy donât we hang out more often? Itâs fun when we do.â đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž: most people who meet him will get either this or the single onion. â«ïž: âOh, thatâs nice. Or Iâm sorry that happened. Unsure of/uninterested in you.â đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž: minor annoyances, inconveniences, nuisances, etc. đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž: âI havenât forgotten that time you had a bad opinion about something I like.â đ§ đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïž: âWell, now youâre really starting to get on my nerves.â đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ â«ïž: âReading you to filth might not be worth it, but if I get a chance, Iâm going to enjoy it anyway.â đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ â ïž: LOATHE ENTIRELY.
CIVILIANS
Haruhi Tatsuhana (đđđđđŠ): âIf I call you my heart, youâre going to call me a nerd.⊠Itâs also not entirely true, because youâre more like the better impulses that I donât always listen to even though I know I should, but my issues with impulse control donât mean that I donât love you.â
Levi Burningham (đđđđđŠ): âIâm losing count of how many people have heard me describe you as âa beautiful boy whoâs way too good for me,â but likeâŠâŠthe fact that I started having Feelings about you when I was still with Greg probably only confirms that, yâknow, you are way too good for me, right? So, anywayâŠâŠ [muffled âThis Love (Will Be Your Downfall)â by Ellie Goulding playing in the distance]â
Aimee Lacroix (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âI know we werenât super-close in school or anything, but I did always think you were fierce, andâŠâŠI donât know. Iâve been in my feelings about how many people from our graduating class have just up and gone missing? So, whenever I show up to look for my Yukiâs birthday present at your shop, please know that Iâm going to attempt to reconnect with you. I donât care how awkward it could be; itâs important to me to know that youâre doing okay.â
Alex Masters (đđđâ«ïžâ«ïž): âI miss you. Iâm sorry that I didnât do more to help you, and that realistically, there wasnât a lot that I couldâve done, especially not sinceâŠâŠI didnât really get to opt out of being involved in my family trying to fall apart over alcohol all over again. Wherever you are, and whatever happened to you, I hope you found peace.â
Asher Voldaren (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âI hope everything works out for them with their aunt? Who got back in contact? âŠPlease, donât let this turn into yet another situation where a friend disappears and I never hear from them again. Please.â
Ayame Tatsuhana (đđđđđŠ): âYou, cousin, are the only nineteen-year-old who is allowed to speak to me and allowed to be nineteen instead of âbasically twelve.â Teenagers are why I canât have nice thingsâexcept for you.â
Jaime Alexander (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âKinda more work-friends than anyone Iâve met not-at-Scandals? But you couldnât ask for a sweeter work-friend, you really couldnât.â
Leandro Esparza (đđđâ«ïžâ«ïž): âLook, I know he can be A Bit Much, but as someone else who is also A Bit Much, I honestly appreciate that about him. Give him a chance and heâll grow on you. Heâs a really sweet guy.â
Livie Lune (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âLovely girl. Knowledgeable, helpful, cute as a very fabulous, sparkly button.â
Luka Johanson (â«ïž): âLosing you broke Alex, and I know that itâs not your fault? Itâs not like anybody ever wants to mysteriously disappear in Destiny City. But emotions arenât rational, and on some level, I do hold it against you that you disappeared when Alex needed you.â
Michelle Alexander (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âJaimeâs big sister! Absolutely gorgeous in the face department. Iâd love to paint her sometime; she has an amazing canvas to work with.â
TorĂĄin Rafferteigh (đđđđâ«ïž): ââŠâŠIs it weird if I want to sing the âFUN Songâ? Because in addition to being adorable and a high-key catch, you do make me want to sing the âFUN Song.â đ¶ F is for âfriends who do stuff together.â U is for âyou and me.â N is for âno surviiiiiiiivorsâŠâ đ¶â
âWhen will I stop belonging to this hungry thing inside me? What no one ever talks about is how dangerous hope can be. Call it forgiveness with teeth.â âClementine von Radics, âThe Summer Everything Grew Wild and the Rain Came Down Like Punishmentâ
DARK MIRROR
Eternal Sailor Acubens (đđđâ«ïžâ«ïž): âOnee-san! âŠPlease tell me if my looking up to you ever gets awkward or anything, because I really donât want to make you feel bad? I justâŠâŠknow that I know nothing about being a senshi or being with the Dark Mirror Court, and since youâre both powerful and elegant, Iâm trying to learn from your example.â
Eternal Sailor Chione (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âI havenât actually met you yet? But youâre Leviâs sister and Onee-sanâs amazing wife, so you must be wonderful.â
Eternal Sailor Elsa (đđđđđŠ): ââŠâŠplease donât be upset about this big number I have in the works for Pride Season. Iâve been working on it since before I knew you were a senshi or that your senshi name is Elsa. But itâs a Frozen mega-mix with âLet It Goââpart of it Idinaâs version from the movie, part of it from the musical, and part of it from the Japanese dubââMonsterâ from the stage show, âShow Yourself,â and four onstage costume changes because a b***h has to show up every other drag queen whoâs performed a ******** Elsa number. Yeah, so, anywayâŠâŠ [muffled âCowboys and Angelsâ by George Michael playing in the distance]â
Super Sailor Logos (đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âOkay, honey, let me break this down for you: you need to please take several seats and stop acting like, one, youâre the smartest b***h in the roomâI donât know, maybe you are, but youâre not the only b***h in the room and if you canât work together with people, thatâs a problemâand two, someone is an idiot because they disagree with you or came to different conclusions than you did. Also, being a super senshi doesnât make you inherently better than me or anybody else. Excuuuuuuse me, princess, for not having an age-appropriate magical girl awakening.â
Sailor Morpheus (đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âWell, I guess somebody had to be the bitchy cousin. At least youâre not really too intense about it.â
Sailor Quetzalcoatl (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): â*stage whispers* Why is everybody so okay with the fact that we have child-soldiers running around. Literally how are we any better than the Negaverse if weâre stealing literal children out of their ******** math exams and making them fight in a magical girl gang war.â
Sailor Sappho (đđđâ«ïžâ«ïž): âMiss Thing, I cannot judge your dubious romantic choices lately; I know all too well how badly cute people can ******** up the brain cells. But I do think that you need to talk to both your girlfriend and Miss Angelica of Spruce, and apologize to themâespecially Angelicaâand let both of them be in their feelings about that talk, whatever those feelings are. Itâs going to be difficult, and itâs going to suck, but I know you can do it. heartâ
Eternal Sailor Tantalus (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âHavenât met you yet either, but you being The Eleventh Museâs big brother makes me predisposed to think well of you.â
Sailor Volterra (đđđđđŠ): âIâm sorry that your fuku makes you feel dysphoric. So, letâs go work on finding you ways to train up and get stronger, so you can get a new one quickly. heartâ
âThis entire court is one of my families now, this is not up for debate. Yes, even you, Poutyface.âŠâŠ Fine, I guess Logos can come, too. Itâs not like we can really rely on the other team of Chaos rats to look out for us.â
âThereâs an art / to everything. Even / turning away. How eventually even hunger / can become a space / to live in.â âCarl Phillips, âCivilization.â
WHITE MOON
Amsvartnir of Cosmos (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âI still donât understand what I did to make you decide that I am any kind of aspirational, inspirational, or otherwise positive figure in your life, but the fact that you have so few other queer friends and a sad backstory has endeared you to me indefinitely, I guess, soâŠâŠugh, whatâs your drink order? Iâll go get us coffee, power up in an alley for secret identity reasons, and be right back.â
prev: đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžââWhy in Godâs name have I apparently acquired a Cosmos Knight who has imprinted on me like a lost, gay duckling. What is this, whatâs going on, someone help me, I need an adultier adult.â
prev: đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžââUgh. Tiresome. You might as well be twelve. Donât talk to me until you can drink legally.â
Sailor Angelica (đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âGurl. Iâm trying my damn best to be kind to you, because I know that Sappho hurt you, even though she didnât mean to, and I think your hurt is validâbut you need better ******** coping mechanisms than attacking people you DONâT KNOW just because we wear Dark Mirror fukus!â
Sailor Anser (đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âIn the words of decorated contemporary philosopher, Taylor Swift: you need to CALM. DOWN. Also, go back to middle school, where you belong.â
Sailor Daedalus (): [placeheld]
Sailor Dagon (): [placeheld]
Sailor Daphne (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âI was going to say something mean about you, honestly, butâŠâŠI get that being in a new place, and not having anything you know even exist anymore, is. probably really stressful for you. Just please donât kick me again?â
Eternal Sailor Encke (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âVery sorry for imposing on you and making you worry about someone youâd just met. Somewhat sorry for crying on you. Not even remotely sorry for hitting on you and being a thirsty b***h in your general direction; I will absolutely do it again, if given an opportunity.â
Erytheia of Cosmos (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âDonât admittedly know much about him? But Cosmos Knights seem to have a good track record for being decent sorts and this one seems fine.â
Sailor Fang (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âCautiously optimistic about the chance to be friends with you? Also, seriously, if you like boys at all, let me introduce you to some. Because I know a LOT of boys who really want a werewolf boyfriend, and I think plenty of them would find a chrysocyon boyfriend equally appealing.â
Princess Ida (đđâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âHime-sama!! Gay gasp, that was AMAZING!! Ugh, sheâs everything a magical girl princess is supposed to be and I am LIVING for it, yes, hi, thank you!!â
prev: âSeems nice. She didnât just immediately hate me for being Chaos and was willing to hear me out about the dead spot that Fang and I found. Willing to let me help with whateverâs going on with the weird dead spots in town. Cautiously optimistic about her?â
Eternal Sailor Kerberos (đđđđâ«ïž): âWhatâs up, slut. I brought boba today. Itâs cool to think of you as my senpai as long as I donât ruin everything by saying it out loud, right? Okay, cool, because Iâm gonna do it.â
(ERROR: RATING NOT FOUND): âItâs not like I look up to you or anything, Blossom!!! âŠâŠWell, itâs not like I like you or anything!!! âŠâŠâŠâŠWell, itâs not like I look at you, even knowing that you used to be Negaverse, and think âWow, this is everything a magical girl is supposed to beâ or anything!!! âŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠWell, itâs not like I wanna kiss you or anything! Because I want to kiss Elsa. HA. Found one that isnât a lie. âŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠAlso, if you insist on continuing to CARE at me, then Iâm going to do it back to you, and you can ******** deal with it because you are NOT allowed to be the only person in this relationship who shows active concern for the other one.â
Kom El Shoqafa of Saturn (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âThe debtâs been paid, but please steer clear of Arsenolite. You seem like a decent guy, and heâs a ******** a*****e.â
prev: âYou saved my life from Centi-Tina, and someday, Iâm going to do the same for you. A Lannister always pays her debts.â
Kurma (đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ â«ïž): âUgh, get <********>, Knock-Off Ian Malcolm.â
LĂŠraĂ°r of Neptune (đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): ââ
Mont Saint-Michel of Saturn (đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ â ïž): âWhen you inevitably get yourself killed for thinking youâre better than Faustite and getting put in your place, the only tragedy will be that Fang has to suffer because youâre a self-righteous ******** idiot.â
Super Sailor Lysithea (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âShe seems sweet, very friendly and considerate, and anybody trying to help Monoceros get out of the Negaverse is immediately in my good books.â
Pendour of Neptune (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âShe seems like a lovely person and I really hope she can be saved from the rift that took her. Also, that she can regrow her cucumbers, after the dead spots showing up all over town get figured out and fixed.â
Sailor Polyhymnia (đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âIn retrospect, I acknowledge that you had a point or several about needing to secure the scene before getting that guy out of Valjeanâs attack radius, but the petty b***h in me is still mad that you treated me like some idiot child for caring about getting said man to a hospital.â
Sailor Roka ():
Sailor Terebellum (): [placeheld]
âI am fragile and unholy. Open. Ravage. Eat.â âTanaka Mhisi, in Literary Sexts, vol. 2.
NEGAVERSE
Corrupt Eternal Albite (đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): ââNoâ means <******** NOâ regardless of how sexy you are, Hot Lips. You seem generally decent for the most part, but I cannot stress enough that âNoâ does NOT mean âYesâ and âGet lostâ DOES *NOT* mean âTake me, Iâm yours.ââ
Captain Arsenolite (đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ â«ïž): âGod, has anybody told you lately that youâre the WORST?? Because if not, then please, allow me to do the honors.âŠâŠâŠ That said, Iâm glad you didnât die in crystalspace against the gargoyle things. Seeing you there was something familiar in the midst of all that, and frankly, I do wish that you sucked less. TorĂĄin deserves better from you.âŠâŠ DÄku Kingudamu no baka.â
Captain Briartite (): [placeheld]
General Faustite (ERROR: RATING NOT FOUND): âYou come on like Joffrey Baratheon, progressively reveal yourself to be more like Sandor Clegane, and seem like you mean to steal The Rogue Princeâs title of âThe Wonder And The Terror of His Age.â Also, did you take it personally that I interpreted your behavior as you not liking me or what? I have no idea where we stand or what the ******** is going on with us. All I know is that at least it isnât boring, and Iâd rather deal with you than with ******** Mirrorspace. Unlike Mirrorspace, you have the benefit of being real.â
prev: âUgh, it speaks so terribly of me that Iâd still probably let you hit it, even though your personality is s**t and you seem to openly hate me. But, like the song says: đ¶ If thereâs a prize for rotten judgment, I guess Iâve already won that⊠đ¶â
prev: âIâm sorry. Whatever vengeance you want, itâs fine. I deserve it. JustâŠâŠplease donât edge me about it. Make it quick.â
prev: âOkay, youâve made your point already: you donât like me. Wow, youâre so ******** special. If you donât want to collect penance, then just leave me the ******** alone and Iâll do the same to you. Take care of yourself.â
prev: âWhy did we not just listen to Miss Jada. She had the hands-down best idea about how the ******** to handle whatever this garbage is between us.â
Corrupt Sailor Fafnir (đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âDonât trust you as far as I can throw you, Fire and Blueâd.â
Corrupt Sailor Heliodor (â«ïž): âConsider me deeply uncertain of how I feel in your general directionâ
prev: đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžââLove your slutty outer space ninja outfit, hate your personality. Smarmy b***h.â
Captain Jadarite (đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âUh huh. Yeah. Sure, Miss Sharp-Dressed Maâam. Iâve met tons of girls like you before, sweetheart. Come on like you really want to be friends, while actually, youâre hoarding intel and getting ready to use it against me and everyone else. It was tedious, tired ******** bullshit back in high school, and itâs tired, tedious ******** bullshit now. Still, you have good taste in TV and were about the only person on your team who actually listened when Faustite said not to torture me, so I guess youâre not all bad.â
Corrupt Sailor Lilith (â«ïž): âDunno what to make of that one, yet.â
Corrupt Sailor Mirzam (đ§ đ§ đ§ đ§ â«ïž): âTaking advantage of other queer people to feed the Negaverse, like: A. you donât know better, and B. we donât have it hard enough? Ugh. Jesus. Gross.â
Corrupt Sailor Mizuki (): [placeheld]
Corrupt Eternal Monoceros (đđđđâ«ïž): âNow that weâve been acquainted in both forms of ourselves, I really think we should talk about how I donât think it was okay that you were forcibly corrupted, and I donât see how it could possibly have been a quote-unquote ânecessary evilâ for whoever did it to force that on you. As much as I like you, Iâd rather miss out on you and your friendship than only have met you because someone else in your life tried to erase everything that you are for their own benefit.â
Corrupt Sailor Pax (â«ïž): âTerse, but you seemed uncomfortable in general. No idea what sort of read I get on you yet, so I have no real quarrel with you yet, either. Please choose better friends.â
Corrupt Sailor Valjean (đ§ đ§ â«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âYâknow, I have to give you some credit, because it DO take NERVE to be so completely up yourself that you only deign to show a girl something resembling <******** manners AFTER he walks through the Dark Mirror and gets shiny magical femboy powers. Also, itâs rude of you to be so attractive despite having what seems like a garbage personality. I cordially invite you to stop that. It is FURTHER rude of you to make me feel terrible for you by acting like your forced corruption doesnât matter. Youâre just shockingly rude all around, really.â
âmy hungry is different than their hungry / I envy their discipline but not enough to do anything about it.â âKaveh Akbar, âUnburnable the Cold is Flooding Our Livesâ
VELENCIANS
Lysvi (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âThey seem so nice! Really refreshing to deal with someone whoâs actually open to working with other people, especially after someone from my own alleged team had such a tantrum over me looking for allies besides the two of us.â
Vaylin (đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïž): âFought alongside me, Fang, Quetzalcoatl, and Kerberos when Ida went Princess. Seems like a good egg.â
I said, Come in. Make yourselves at home. I opened my glittering jaw. My hunger, too, has both hard and soft parts. Here, in a seed, is a cyborg: A bleeding girl, dragging a knife through the sand. An imaginary girl who dreams of becoming trash. âFranny Choi, âA Brief History of Cyborgs.â
MAUVIANS
Hoshi-no-Tama (đđđâ«ïžâ«ïž): âYour habit of picking on Faustite unnecessarily is kind of irritating, but overall, youâre really a sweet, intelligent, delightful little guy. His team is lucky to have you and Iâm lucky to have had you helping me.â
prev: đâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžâ«ïžââBecause you are a cat who was inexplicably kind to me instead of hating me on-sight, I am inclined toward liking you at least somewhat, but I do not want ******** help from anyone affiliated with General Phoenix Force.â
Soyala (đđđđđŠ): âIâve only had Soya in my life for a few hours, and if anything ever happened to her, I would go on a ridiculous JRPG quest to find God and punch Them square in the face.â
Scandals Bar. Kiyoshiâs old home bar from before he purified, which has (as of June/July 2025) become his home bar all over again. If you ask him, Scandals is The Best Queer Bar In Destiny City And Probably Also The Entire World Ever. This is an extremely unbiased take that you should trust at face-value (âŠâŠâŠsaid no one). Genuinely, it is a very chill place with good vibes, a welcoming atmosphere, and the best drag shows in Destiny City reliably entertaining and fun drag shows (which Kiyoshi will tell you are the best in Destiny City, period end of discussion, but thatâs just his opinion and you are encouraged to disagree). Itâs good to keep him in check by presenting dissenting opinions.
Location Description:
A hole-in-the-wall bar, located not too terribly far from DCU, in one of the cityâs enclaves where a lot of LGBTQ people and LGBTQ-owned businesses have settled. There are three floors: two floors above ground and a basement, plus a building-top patio that is usually open from mid-spring to early/mid-autumn.
The ground floor has a bar, a mix of free tables, bar seating, and booths along the wall. They have a modest stage, where the drag shows are performed, with a piano and a (somewhat aged but largely functional) projector that can be incorporated into peopleâs numbers if they want. Thereâs a decent backstage area for the performers to get ready, change between numbers, etc. The second floor is quieter, a better place to go for a date if you actually want to hear them talk. The basement has its own bar and, more importantly, the dancefloor.
Events, Activities, Etc.:
Drag shows generally start sometime between 9PM and 10PM every night. Most of them are produced by Ms. Sibyl Disobedience (also known as Jude Baldwin, Kiyoshiâs drag mother from before he purified), but she does try to make room for other performers to produce shows as well.
There are a lot of themed shows for Halloween and Christmas/Hanukkah/general winter holiday times. There may not always be a whole special Christmas Eve show, but nevertheless, the performers and audiences at Scandals do like their themed holiday shows.
Taking cues from bars like Roscoes in Chicago, and shows like the Dreamgirls Revue in Los Angeles, drag shows at Scandals are generally recorded with numbers that do well getting posted on the barâs official youtube channel. Performers can opt out of this with no judgment and no questions asked if they prefer.
Video-editing for those recordings and tech for the shows are both handled by a pair of volunteers. Their names are Matt and Katie, they are brother and sister, and theyâll do whatever they can to help accommodate everyone and make a performerâs vision come to life as well as possible.
Scandals has various âtheme nightsâ throughout the month, specifically catered to certain kinds of queer people (e.g., geek/nerd nights, plus-size nights, nights for different BIPOC groups), with the drag shows usually spotlighting performers and numbers that match the theme (e.g., cosplay drag is more common on geek nights, and BIPOC or plus-size performers take center stage on those nights). The âtheme nightsâ change from month to month, and bar staff regularly posts updates/reminders about them on the barâs official social media (Facebook, Instagram, Bluesky, and Twitter).
The bar hosts Drag Race viewing parties whenever thereâs a Big Deal season airingâso, basically: a new season of the OG US franchise, a new season of US All Stars, or a new season of an international spin-off thatâs getting a lot of buzz online (usually this means Canadaâs Drag Race, Drag Race UK, or a vs. The World series with some popular queens on it). Scandals has never managed to book any of the drag artists from the Drag Race shows, but the viewing parties are a fun time regardless.
Wednesdays are âpiano bar nights,â where some rotating performers play the piano and maybe sing, from 5PM to 10PM. Music for Piano Bar Wednesdays tends to be either showtunes or piano versions of pop songs (but other songs and styles are also welcome).
The piano is sometimes used as backing for drag performers who sing live in their numbers. When this happens, it is usually being played by either Rafael Montero or Benjy Gaunt, two regulars from Piano Bar Wednesdays.
âYou donât know true freedom until you donât want what they want you to want.⊠Outside the respectable domain, the vantage of an unjust world is always clearest.â âCA Conrad, âGoing From Zero to Sexy On High-Caloric Queer Overdrive.â
âAt seventeen, I started to starve myself I thought that love was a kind of emptiness And at least I understood then, the hunger I felt And I didn't have to call it loneliness We all have a hunger.â âFlorence & The Machine, âHunger.â
